Too much and never enough

12 hours of work.
8 hours of sleep.
4 hours of eating and commuting?

Another day done. 3 more to go. I will get this through this week.

By Monday, hopefully Bobblehead Ronnie’s page will be all set.

I have a lot of things I want to get done in the near future and I need to stay motivated. This of course is my New Years’ Resolution…again. Maybe it will stick more than a couple of weeks this time.

Among the things on my agenda are:

• an ADS (Alternative Data Stream) Utility
• Download and setup Doppler for podcasting
• Write a review of the new Zen Touch I got.
• Write a review of the new Case I got
• Maybe down the road start to look into driver development. thats a ways off though
• Start brushing up on the Japanese again
• Finish reading The Once and Future King
• Organize the summer replacement Con with Demmie for everyone else

Lots to do. Some are just passive desires, some, amibitious undertakings and the rest is somewhat busy/fun work. Gotta stay motivated though. I’ve had an overwhelming feeling of restlessness lately that has been building for some time. Basically just that I don’t think I’ve done enough with myself as of late; socially, occupationally, or creatively.

Everyone says I’ve done so much, particularly in the past year, but I can’t help but wonder if I really have done that much, or, as I think, I’ve just done whats easiest and followed the path of least resistance. I can’t help but be ashamed of that.

And now I have wasted what little time I had tonight, further delaying the completion of the bobblehead section.

Sometimes I think I’m Manic Depressive.

Either way, Time for bed. Night.